"Best Of" #1 - I do not want to be

In this series of posts, I am gathering together a smattering of my writing from a variety of sources for your edification and my convenience.

This first piece is a poem that I wrote on my experiences in a polyamorous relationship. I wrote this in September of 2007.


I do not want to be the sun in your sky-
The sun is blinding in her jealousy,
Only rarely
Does she share the vast world-dome
And with so few
I have to wonder-
Does she ever become lonely,
Burning so fiercely by herself?
No, I do not want to be the sun in your sky.

I do not wish to be the moon
Who shines without burning,
But neither does he nourish.
He waxes and wanes,
Sometimes seeming to strive to be
at least a pale reflection
of the glory of the sun.
And I wonder if he tires
Of trying to be something he is not?
No, I do not wish to be the moon.

I am not the wind
To be ever seeking after you
Nor am I
The road beneath your feet.
I am not a rock
To build your house-
Or your heart- upon.

What then do I seek?

I seek to be your pole star,
That while I might not always be
The brightest light in the sky
I might be a
Constant in your wanderings
And a sign to point toward
when you come home again.